Loves Comes In All Different Ways

my bestie && Ma!

My other family, I swear I like I owe them my life, my everything. I wouldnt replace them with anybody else. (Cant forget Govan && Kwesi) Thank you so much for everything yall have done for me, and my family. And thank you for giving me a place to stay when I had no where to go. And food to eat, I love yall so much <3

I am Me

sometimes i get self conscience
ive always been that way
i feel i dont look pretty
almost every other day
like majority of the girls i see
i do not have long hair
and i dont have a nice set of heels
tennis, boots, and slip on is comfty for me to wear
i prefer white eye liner over black
and when i wear my flexis at the top
i push my short hair back
im shorter than the most im only 5'2
before very action i gotta think shit through
im a virgin and im on my own time
its nothin to me to say no,
ive said it about 1000 times
people swear they never seen a butt as big as mines
and i put these niggas to the back
i got them standin in lines
i pay them no mind
cus all they do is lie
they aint even the only ones committin that crime
it be these bitches too, i tell you they are swear they real
you not even man enough to express how you feel
back to me, im sensitive as can be
and i still think these niggas only afta one thing
it dont matter how long i knew you
i just cant fade no relationship
no swindles yall fake, think yall gonna get picked
i love my brother
sometimes dislike my mother but i love her to death
my daddy be too cool, i swear he the best
i got too much determination
its these dreams i stay chasin
im good, im better off all by myself
im me, im britany
im not gonna be nobody else.

i just needed my space,,,

for the past couple of days i have been completely mia from everybody except my family. right now i didnt find the need to associate outside of them. im beginning to see people for who they are now. people dont look out for you the way they claim to. its crazy how you think you know people and it comes out that you dont, the same people who promised they would never lie to you do. the same people who swore they would be there for you arent. and its funny. im not giving up on nobody because ive never been a quitter. but ive done just about everything i can for everybody, i looked out for everybody more than i look out for myself. there was never a time where i put myself before anybody. but its life i guess. once i get my head cleared ill be okay, ill have my smile back and ill be able to keep it. i been there for all my friends through their darkest times, answered my phone 4, 5, and 6, in the am with phone calls and text messages cryin and hurt. when in doubt i always kept to myself, people dont know the half of what runs through my mind on a daily basis. but ima be patient. because nobody is perfect. i just need/ needed my space.

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i havent written a poem in a while, this is kinda how im feeling for the moment..

Although I'm single, I feel like I live for  two

Because everything you asked of me, I did it for you

When I was down to my last, I gave it up

No questions asked

When you needed me to hold you down

Again no questions I was around

Except that one time when your father had passed

But I cant see how I can be the blame

You wasn’t even bein a “man”

About your shit when you claimed how real you were

Then all of a sudden you got this new yungin

You never even told me about her

You was bein sneaky, and  hiding her in the dark

But little did you know nigga the light began to shine

It was no way that shit was gonna get far

Its getting to the point where you too fucked up with me

And I forgive you every single time, I continue to be naïve

Waiting…wow nigga time is tickin

Especially on my clock nigga I'm not bout to WAIT for you to start pickin

Do what you gotta do yung don’t let me hold you back from nothing

Cus at the end of the day theres a high chance ima still leave with something

That means all the work you put it would be for no reason at all

If you wasn’t gonna be real wit me, from the jump you shouldn’t have let me fall.

The Bitch Is Badddd