i just needed my space,,,

for the past couple of days i have been completely mia from everybody except my family. right now i didnt find the need to associate outside of them. im beginning to see people for who they are now. people dont look out for you the way they claim to. its crazy how you think you know people and it comes out that you dont, the same people who promised they would never lie to you do. the same people who swore they would be there for you arent. and its funny. im not giving up on nobody because ive never been a quitter. but ive done just about everything i can for everybody, i looked out for everybody more than i look out for myself. there was never a time where i put myself before anybody. but its life i guess. once i get my head cleared ill be okay, ill have my smile back and ill be able to keep it. i been there for all my friends through their darkest times, answered my phone 4, 5, and 6, in the am with phone calls and text messages cryin and hurt. when in doubt i always kept to myself, people dont know the half of what runs through my mind on a daily basis. but ima be patient. because nobody is perfect. i just need/ needed my space.